Though,
A good start,
I can't remember what they're called.

:D 

BUT it ain't gunna stop me! D:

So,
Yes, I'm in College.
Yes, It's shit.
Yes, I was probably the one who was most looking forward to College.
Yes, I wish that I wasn't in either College or Sixth Form.
Yes, I wish life would just shove it where the sun don't shine.

 I'm having a tad bit of a ..crisis?
Well, other than my dad being in hospital..
(I'll spare details. I've been updating everyone and anyone about him.)
..Love. Boys. Gayness ¬_¬
I'm in a bit of a pickle with a guy in college, he likes me but I don't like him.
Or there's another guy in college who I like but he doesn't like me.

OR! There's another guy. Not from college though. I really like him.
Though it's wrong and would never happen (as he is taken), I can't stop thinking about him.
I find I'm so bored when he's not around.
And wanting him to keep me company when I'm on my tod.
I always look forward to seeing him, he makes me laugh alot.
I can talk to him easily as well. We have quite a bit in common methinks.
Suckage much, eh?

And there's all my friends now.
They all were in relationships.
Split up.
Now, probably, getting back into some new ones.
And there's me. Attracting guys I'm only going to hurt.
And I don't want to hurt them but if I say yes, I know my heart's not in it.
Woe is fuckin' me(!) and all that shit.. 

So..
If anyone acutally pays attention to me on this shit..
Please talk to me, I'll be glad of meeting/chatting to new people.
I think I could probably do with it.
Well, that and getting wrecked.

ttfn (: <3 x 

so, my weekend was quite interesting!
how was yours?

so, idk what to update tbh.
ooh, go onto http://start.io/mussssh
its got all my websites on there.
tip; Twitter/Tumblr/FormSpring (Y)

when i can think of something to update,
I shall say! (:

oh, and wonderful wake-up call this morning.
(: xx

though,
i had a nice surprise in the post this morning.
my copy of Hold Me Down arrived.
awesome much?

as i watched their interview on T4 (nervous much?)
and theyre performance of Underdog, i was unwrapping the cd!

and i now have Hold Me Down to keep me company in work tonight.
what a saturday eh?

anyway,
excuse me YMASness :)

Twitter?
follow me people :D
ill follow back an all :)
www.twitter.com/mussssh

YMAS 'Hold Me Down' out 11th Jan, preview here:
http://youmeatsix.co.uk/holdmedown/

only 5 days left until the album is out! :D

offical music video for new single Underdog is now up on youtube.

NINE things about yourself:
1. im lonely.
2. im constantly bored.
3. i always keep myself to myself, hate talking about me.
4. i dont have a way with words.
5. music is quite often my escape, always listening to it.
6. im having mixed emotions at the moment.
7. i dont think i will ever fall in love, doesn seem like me.
but if it happens, itll be special.
8. i wish things that i know will never EVER happen all the time.
9. im verra odd :D

8 things to win your heart:
1. take an interest in me.
2. if you act like we're mates, i wont feel as awkward.
3. dont be a knob :D
4. crap this is hard...
5. dont diss my mates, try to get on with them so people dont feel torn.
6. make the first move, i dunno what im doing :L
7. there aint 8 things.. that i know of.
8. ?.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:
1. music and lyrics are always running around in there.
2. thoughts figuring out why i like someone (in a non-friend way, im not mean :L)
3. daydreams.
4. some very odd thoughts.
5. 'id better check when im working'.
6. whatever is happening at that moment in time.
7. 'man i need credit'.

SIX things you do before you go to bed on an average day:
1. put my headphones in and blast my latest load of addicted songs.
2. shove all the shit and cat off my bed.
3. check Facebook etc.
4. change in me jimmers.
5. think 'WHYY'.
6. lie awake fer a good couple of hours until i actually feel sleepy.

FIVE people who mean a lot in your personal life and FIVE on here:
1. parents im guessing :L
2. Jo.
3. Helv.
4. Andrew, Hannah, Owain & Emmy.
(they come as a package :L)
5. ?.

1. ?.
2. ?.
3. ?.
4. ?.
5. ?.

FOUR things you are wearing right now: 
1. PJ bottoms.
2. PJ top.
3. dressing gown.
4. braclets.

THREE songs that fit your life perfectly:
1. All These Things I Hate Revolve Around Me - Bullet For My Valentine.
2. Always Attract - You Me At Six.
3. Cubicles - My Chemical Romance.

TWO things you want to do before you die:
1. find the one person mad enough to stick with me.
2. try to do as much as i can.

ONE confession:
1. im pessimistic.

Ever wonder if you're someone's everything?
i doubt it but its gotta happen sometime, right?.

Last song played more than three times?
Good Girls Go Bad - Cobra Starship feat Leighton Meester.

Last time you were really happy?
um last night and the night before.
(Halloween and the night after).

Did you take a nap today?
noo, i never sleep during the day.

Who got mad at you last?
i dunno but i hope no one :(

Last car you were in?
someone at work.

What color is your room?
blue.

Where are your parents right now?
both at work.

Does someone love you?
probably not :L

Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
yup.

Do you like to cuddle?
i never have anyone to cuddle.

Have you ever made out against a car?
nope.

Kissed someone that had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
nope.

Are you ticklish?
kinda.

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
last night.

Any plans for tomorrow?
not much.. shower then chill.

When is the last time you were in a photo-booth taking pictures with friends?
beginning of this year, really should have an update :L

Whats the last thing you laughed at?
conversations last night.

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
um.. no one.

What was the first thing you thought this morning?
'shiiit i missed the bus'.

What color are your eyes?
light blue.

Is there a girl that you would do absolutely everything for?
idk, i dont feel like im awfully close to alot of people.

Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
i have the sniffles.

Have you ever been cheated on?
no.

Are you dating the last person you talked to?
no im single!

What is stressing you out most right now?
the boredom of being single
and i aint stressed. never am really.

What happened last night? 
i went to work, stayed down the pub till midnight then came back, fell out with my mum, went to bed.

Did the last person you kissed have any piercings?
nope.

Do you know anyone who refuses to swear?
no. tbh, everyone i know cant stop swearing :L

Did you go anywhere yesterday?
work.

Do you have plans for this weekend?
well, its just finished but next weekend.. nope nothing atm.

What's bothering you right now?
boredom in general :L

Was last night terrible?
nah, it was quite good.

What were you doing at ten last night?
down the pub.

Lets say you had a baby with the last person you kissed?
oh good god! never!

Who were you last on the phone with?
um.. Martin i think

Why did you last cry?
watching One Tree Hill when Lucas and Peyton discovered there was a big chance that she could die giving birth to their kid..
it was so sad! (you had to watch it)

Your phone is ringing. It's your ex. What do you say?
i dont have an ex.

I bet you miss somebody right now?
kinda, yeh.

Is there someone you want to see?
maayybee.

Whose clothes are you wearing?
mine.

Where were you at 2 this morning?
in bed, asleep..

When was the last time you laughed really hard?
last night at work.

Next time you will kiss someone?
not sure tbh, maybe when im next drunk?

Do you hate the last person you kissed?
i dont hate him but i dont like him & never talk to him.

What if the last person you kissed said that you were the only one they wanted?
id tell him to look somewhere else cause i dont think of him like that.

The boy/girl you truly care about needs you at 3 AM, would you go?
well theyd have to call me mobile but theyd have bad luck cause i never leave it on over night.

Within the next 4 months, what are you looking forward to most?
two concerts, birthdays, christmas!, new year.

Have you broken the law in the last 3 days?
no.. i dont think so.

Have you ever kissed an ex after you broke up?
again, no ex.

Have you kissed anyone within the last week?
nope.

Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 21? 
no one.

What's going on between you and the last person you kissed? 
nothing. i never talk to him.

Would you get back with your last ex if they asked you? 
have none.

how many people of the opposite sex have you cried over?
none.

Do you like to take walks?
yea but i never actually go anywhere.

Are you listening to music right now?
yup, Leana Lewis - Happy.

Did you kiss anyone today?
my cat :L no lol

Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with an A?
yup.

Have you ever kissed in the rain?
nope.

Who was the last girl you talked to? 
Helv.

Do you think that you have made a difference in someone's life?
other than my rents, no.

What are you currently doing besides this? 
watching telleh.

Are you gonna be home alone tonight?
nope.

How long was the last shower you took?
15mins.

Do you think long distance relationships work out?
idk.

Why aren't you at home right now? 
hm.. maybe because i am home..

This time last year, were you single? 
i was and this time this year, i am still.

How has your heart been lately?
confused.

Do you bump into someone's arm if you want to hold their hand?
i cant say that ive wanted to hold hands.

Think back in April, how was your love life then?
as 'full' as it is now.

Whats one thing you really wanted last night?
i wished that he wasnt taken.

..bleh

so yesterday,
my college course had a trip to go down to Bristol Zoo.

got woken up at around half 6, on the bus by half 7..
stood outside infront of Bristol Zoo in the rain by half 12..

but other than that crappy start..
was a really good day!

the pics are on BN now..
http://broken1wings-bristolzoo.buzznet.com/user/photos/

:D
some are SO cute!!